I celebrated my Birthday this past weekend with about 16 of my nearest and dearest in the Big Apple. I wanted to do something different this year, so I decided to hire someone to throw me a dinner party, meaning they did all of the cooking, cleaning, planning, setup, EVERYTHING! My only job was to show up, pay for this beautiful experience, and enjoy the whole production while soaking up the love from those around me. At first I waivered on if this was the right choice, I mean I was going to shell out a nice chunk of change to do this, AND I was handing over complete control to do so (this is no easy feat for a control freak as myself). In addition, I don’t always feel so comfortable having the spotlight turned on me in this way, it can actually feel a little scary sometimes. Plus I kept thinking, “who do I think I am, a fricking Kardashian or something? I mean why do I deserve such an extravagant party?” Plus I’m usually more of a lets downplay my birthday and grab drinks at a dive bar kinda gal. It was really tempting to not plan anything, and stay inside and hibernate with my lonesome self. Even though I felt so many mixed emotions about celebrating myself in such a big way, I knew that I just had to do it. I couldn’t really express why, but I just knew. Well, coming out the other side of it, I will tell you exactly why I had to do it. It all boils down to this :
Celebrating yourself is an investment in your own joy.. Even though it was scary to do this, I am quite sure that it will pay off in dividends, I can already feel the magic brewing in a way that I cannot quite express. It is as if I quite literally said to the universe “hey there, I’m ready for MORE, more joy, love, money, abundance, passion, all of it. I’m putting it on the line right here and now because I am worthy, now it is up to you to meet me there, see you on the other side”. It was quite honestly one of the most special and magical nights I have ever had and I feel completely energized and rejuvenated from both the act of giving to myself and my friends in this way, and all of the love I received. Knowing that our thoughts and feelings usually dictate what manifests in our physical world, I now feel completely confident that not only did I give myself joy for the evening, I gave it to myself for the not so distant future.
Here we all are, celebrating after dinner.
This doesn’t just apply to Birthdays either. I will certainly remember this the next time I am tempted to stay at home on my couch b/c I am trying to save money, or don’t want to dish out that $15 for a manicure or a 10 minute massage. There are opportunities for joy everyday in big and small ways and it is easy to sometimes allow my petty fears prevent me from experiencing them. This weekend was a very big reminder for me that it is absolutely necessary to allow joy to be my guide. It is an investment in yourself and in your future!
Oh, and if anyone is looking for assistance planning an event in NYC, I cannot recommend anyone more than Karin and Alanna, they absolutely exceeded my expectations x100. Shoot me an email here (Shonda@shondahoward.com) and I will pass along the info
Wishing you a lifetime of JOY. xo